I was able to overcome or live with the others. I was just a kid, though this was around or , and the thing that's incredibly stupid is that I really liked her.
I found some old letters from my fellow campers, in which scolded me for ruining the poor girl's entire summer. All these years later, I still can't forgive myself. I've Googled her name a few times over the years, but never found her I'd have a year pension by now or a ton in the bank had I stuck it out either place.
I turned it down because my SO hated them and spent the whole weekend before I was supposed to start railing against big corporations. Staying with my SO during years of alcoholism, fearing a breakup of the family, figuring I could manage it, and trying to maintain their dignity when they had none. I hate that even today, women so often aren't allowed to advocate for themselves in opting for child-free lives. Of course, once a woman has a child, they'll most often say, 'I'm so glad my doctor didn't let me choose that,' because we're not monsters and can fully love, adore, and raise children that we didn't want in the first place.
But that doesn't mean that our lives would've been any less happy had we gotten what we asked for and didn't have kids. Letting anxiety take over, needed to just chill out and not make an already difficult situation worse. In retrospect, if an hour's commute was a dealbreaker, the relationship sucked. Sure, that price would skyrocket. It didn't. Left Germany for Austria in Put the apartment on the market, and it sat empty with no callers for two years.
Today, it's worth four times what I paid. Way back in , when I was 18, I started university in the US and was told by my English professor I should be a writer. My family told me that it was stupid and that I should go into advertising, which I did for 18 years and hated it. Finally, I started writing what I wanted to at Bernard Malamud wrote in The Natural : 'Each of us has two lives.
